woah!!

i dont like the change!!!!!! maybe... i'll get used to it lol.

anywho, its been awhile since i posted and tbh a lot has happened. aaaaand i cannot really remember from last post to now... but ive been on a camp, been told i am doing my AITC in june. gemma has left and came back as an adult. we got pissed last night for 18th as well haha!!! so amazing <3 and college is heating up again.

right cadets- AITC is my adult training course to become a SGT and i cannot wait!!! it is a week long camp and it is going to be solid as hell, but i have already done a SCIC as a cadet and they are really similar, so i have an advantage there :D
gemma has been and gone and she has done it in her very own special way... urgh. i really cannot be arsed with her crap as she is wanting to be the centre of attention all the time, but she is a CA now, she is nothing!!!! annoys me so much but i do still love her haha.
another revelation!!me and my brother are moving detachments... at first i was upset and angry that we had to be moved, but as time goes on, am likeing the idea more and more. i do love worksop det, but it can get to much or even to dull, so change is always good. buuuut i will be going to a det here i have had relationship history with one of the cadets and he still likes me and i cant have that, cos if anyone sees me kiss him or something, i will get kicked out of cadets... not good.
last night was ridiculously funny!!!! haha so amazing and felt so good to get proper drunk again :P but one of gemmas friends she had invited was a friend that i used to be very close with, but shit happened and i hadnt talked to her for the best part of a year, so naturally i was kind of dreading the reunion... but surprising it wasnt that bad... she was her same obnoxious self being all boobs everywhere and laughing uncontrollably loud... urgh. but we did have a bit of a catch up and we did say to each other that we miss each other so... mehh shes a mess. she treats lads like shit, she has a kid and is a massive whore. hate her for being like that. so nasty.

college- assignments are starting to line up and i am worried that i will get behind in project as i havent properly started and the bit i have done, was on my memory stick, which i have lost.......... :( :( :( i think i am going to die!!!!!! for the life of me i cannot find it!!! it is somewhere in my room, but i have no idea :( this saddens me so much :( :(
one of my friends has been kicked off my course too!! its crazy, even though i could see it happening from miles a way... he never handed his stuff in on time, the stuff he did hand in never passed first time, he hardly turned up to college, his work ethic was crap and was a distraction. i did try and help him so many times and encourage him to get his work in, but it was no use... his loss tbh. he hasnt got the qualification. what a waste.

right off to bed now, tomorrow i shall post again and talk about the animal shenanigans that has been happening at college haha!!!!

night!! love <3

youtube binge...

yes!!! i have been watching too much A Very Potter Musical and Little White Lie!!! totally in love with starkid!!! it gets into my brain and i am singing AVPM songs all day and just thinking in the world of harry potter!!!! fucking love it!!! it's so helarious and amazing!! <3 <3 too much love for them. they can easily make me happy when i am sad!!!!

random and amazingly funny thing happened yesterday at cadets. this lad that, yeah i do kind of like, has shagged another female cadet and so i was teasing him about it, calling him dirty( which he is, as nearly every lad had shagged the girls he has recently). and s he came up to me and asked if i was jealous of him because he hasnt slept with me!!!!!!!!! i just had to laugh in his face!!! the things i was saying was to make him feel bad!!!! haha not to tell him i was bloody jealous!!! pahaha. no, jealousy is not in the question. disgust and disappointment? yes. ohhh dear me. i kind of do get where he is coming from as we did kiss a good few months back and we did sleep in the bed at that party... yeahh not good. but nothing happened, and im guessing he thinks that i wanted something to happen. haha cray shi!!!!!!! maaan.

camp this weekend though!! hopefully it should be fun... maybe. not to sure what im doing though when i get there lol. always good...

might post tomorrow, but ive go shit loads of shopping to do for camp and college... urgh

night :3 <3

make up your mind!

the title is about my best friend gemma. she is leaving cadets in two weeks and now that she is getting closer to the date, she doesnt want to leave as she is having much more fun now... i don get her. if she just relaxed in the first place, we wouldnt be in this problem as she would have enjoyed earlier, and wouldnt want to leave!! to crazy for my liking and waay to complicated. i dont need this shit. hahaha.

nothing else happened today...pretty boring until i got to cadets where i had lots of fun :) i did actually have a really good laugh. i love having banter with people :) especially lads, its just so much more fun haha love it!!!!

off to my grandparents tomorrow so i dont know what i will be doing haha. good friday tomorrow though, so i have church in the afternoon. s'always fun... mehh

right, bed!!! niiiiiiiight looove you xxxx

cold!!

we have had snow in april!! april!!!!!!!! mental weather, and thats saying something for england haha.

as mentioned yesterday, i had nothing to do today. so fun. i had to get the newspaper though in the snow which took the piss haha. i got soaked. it was rain and snow together!!! mad weather.

just had a mini depressed moment like five mins ago... i just saw that jonny post a picture on facebook of him and his girlfriend :( it hurt. really bad :( ...

blurghhhhh.

nothing to do tomorrow aswell. love it........ urgh.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xx

easterrrrrrr

my last post said i was going back to college, now i am not. haha hello easter holidayssss!!

i've only been at college for two weeks as well. the first week was completely pointless and last week wasnt actually that bad. well considering me and my friends have be spilt up, and one of my friends brother nearly died in a motor bike accident. its crazy. its only me and two other of my friendship group in out tutor. the rest are in another. its really not fair. and with the motor bike accident... she is a wreak. its so sad. it has nearly been two weeks and there is hardly any improvements. hes still unconscious. :( i feel so bad for her.

cadet news!! none really accept that i will be going on my adult training course in june!!!!!!!!! eeee sooo excited. i will bee a sgt then sooon!!! hahaa aaaaaand my best friend gemma is leaving in like two weeks hahaha. as if she is leaving. she is so ridiculous. she has been having fun as well at detachment. i dont get it. the other night she was all in a flap about not being allowed to do something, but she just doesnt realise that we all had to go through that, shes not the only one!! she thinks shes special and she should be treat that wayy!! angers me soo much!.

jonny's sill seeing that girl... -cry-... haha im so pathetic. well thats what i get when i miss my chance. hmm. he hasnt spoken to me in ages. but he did out of the blue say hi earlier. he was being so nice and flirty too!! :( :( :( grr it just makes me like him again and then feel all depressed haha. mehh.

well its easter holls and i have nowt to do. i did try and organise something with gemma, but nope, aint going to happen. we did actually go to the pub last sunday, and it was actually fun haha. we did alot of catching up and bitching about people haha its our favourite sport ;) aha. yeah it was fun, got a little drunk which is always good and had a brill laugh haha.

might post again tomorrow as i will be doing nothing and it is meant to be snowing (WHAT) so i'll be inside all day haha. well i do need to get back into the swing of this thing anyways haha

niiiiiiiiight <3

oh hai

just a flying visit as i am too tired to reel off what has happened to be since the last time as it was ages ago, but i will post in detail tomorrow.

warning for tomorrow's blog: depressing!!! haha manic stuff happening and not really happening...

oh well, till then :D loveeee <3