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once again it has been awhile since i posted and quite abit has happened. like i said in my last blog, i hated to the kennes i was made to go to, and luckily i found a new place, wagz dog grooming!! it was amazing!!!! best week and a half ever!! haha i loved it! i worked with the best people ever and with one of my favourite animals!!! i had such a laugh there it was so good for me!! so happy.

cadets!!!! things are starting to pick up pace again!! i am teaching lots and the weekend before last i went on my first modular training to get me ready to become a SGT!!!!!! EEEEE!!!!!!!!!! so excited!! the mods weekend was fun!! i didnt really learn anything, it was just mainly refreshing my memory of all the knowledge of cadets haha. we had a laugh though and the buildings we stayed in were amazing haha i dont usually say that about a camp but it was great!! i got very drunk saturday night, but it could have been worse if my brother wasnt there!! haha crazy stuff!!!! i met an old friend too. we have started talking alot. he makes me smile too.... but i know i will fuck it up... :/

yes on the same lines of doing that with a guy who i could have been with. jonny, who i'm not sure if i have mentioned, well it was his 21st birthday a bit back and i wanted to meet him, and to be with him. but that never happened. afew days later he is in a relationship with another girl... i was heart broken when i saw that relationship status change on facebook... he asked me out along time ago and i never said yes. i missed my chance. i always do that. mess things up. my best friend even told me that. she said i can never be happy for my self, never let a guy like me. never like a guy that likes me.

more camp stuff------> right, my best friend and her boy friend (a freind two who also was in love with me... anywhoo) had the mother of all arguments on camp and i had to be the middle man. dont get me wrong i love gemma, but holy crap she is insecure and so fucking annoying when it comes to her relationship with danny!!!!! they had a full blown argument and had to be there to witness this... it was mental. i was willing them to break up tbh.... i know that sounds horrible, but they dont suit, they always fight, gemma is paranoid of him cheating and i want her to be single with me. i will never tell her that though.. i cant, she wont understand. i will never be with anyone. i doubt i will let myself get with anyone...

narghhh drama!!!!

on a lighter note!!! i go back to college tomorrow!!!!!!! i cannot wait to see my friends again!!! we were ment to meet up at the weekend, but the plans that we made AGES AGO AND ALL AGREED ON never happened. no one had time... typical hhahahha. i cannot wait for the next topics we are doing!!! zoo with andy!!!!!!!!!!! omgomgomg so excited and happy!!!!! i'll try and post soon to update you on the college scenario!! eeeeeee!!!!

love!! xxxx

blog two of two

right, work experience...

was excited and reasonably happy about where i was going, but three days in, i am a mess!!!

it still hurts to talk about it if i am honest, but she is one hell of a cow!! she was so aggressive to me and made me cry everyday i was there!! today i walked out just after half an hour.

she made me out to be stupid and lazy...

i had to work with saffordshire bull terriers and pit bull type dogs, both which i hate and are petrified off...

so not the best time of my life. i might talk about it later on in the week or so, when it hurt less. but now i am focused on tomorrow and my new placement at a dog grooming parler. should be fun :D so happy its sorted and i never have to go there again. so happy my tutor was sympathetic <3

right, till the next time. much love

blog one of two

helloooo stranger!!
this blog is going to be in two as i havent posted in awhile, and a lot has happened!!!!

first of all, CADETS!!!!!!
not much tbf. last weekend i was on camp, and i was with people who i detested... i couldnt stand it. i was with a guy who i hate, and who hates me, and i was with a lass who pisses me off no end!!

i was a ridiculous camp. we had to do a 17K walk which killed me almost!! we had to do he walk with full burgans on aswel, and i got told off, in front of the cadets, by the bloke who i did do not like!! he told me off for letting a cadet carry my burgan!?!?! it was stupid!!

i had to basha up with the lass who i dislike as well, i had to bloody sleep next to her!!! i could have killed myself!.

on the plus side, my best friend who i currently am not allowed to talk to is soo leaving cadets to become an adult like me!!!! this means we can talk to each other again!!!!!!! so happy.

thats quite mild to what happened next. blog two it is then!!!