last day of 2012

so it's here!!!!! new years eve. 2013 tomorrow. fun.

tbh i think i have changed over the last year. i dont like to think that i have, but i really have!! i have taken part in so many things that have changed me and there were so many first for me. i have grown so much closer to my new friends and i love them greatly. i dont want to ever loose them.

soppy git

haha. i dont know wether i should start a new blog, or just re-name this one... i think of it tomorrow lol

anyway, good night and happy new year world!!!!!! <3

Merry christmas!!!!!!

hello world, it is that time f year again!!!

presents have been given, and food has been ate and now to watching tv!!! ahh bliss.

i'm of to my grandparents soon and also my uncles. proper family reunion.

however, there has been drama amongst my college friends. i cant even describe what has happened it it just so messed up and stupid. all in all, me jess and hannah have fallen out with rachel. big time!!!! well its kind of more rachel has fallen out with us...

stupid.

anyway, i dont want to get angry now, and i dont want to talk about, or too her.

it should be a nice day today, it usually is :)

well merry christmas world!!!! (well those that celebrate it)

<3

oh fuck! hello december

holy shit man!!!! its advent!! nearly christmas. nearly the new year. nearly a whole year since i started this blog!!! shit man.

ohh dear me, what a year. AND it is no where near done yet!!!! got s much college crap to do, uni to apply for, presents to buy. urgh everything.

well i'm at work placement again. at wagz again... dont get me wrong, its a great place and i have fun. but i wish college set me up with something else and something to do with what i want to do with my life. infuriating.
well im going to organise my own the next time, so hopefully it will be okay... maybe lol.

i went to Chester Zoo last friday. and i have to say that it was the bast day of my life. i have no time to talk about it now, but i will later today, or tomorrow lol :D

night night world <3

oh god, hello november...

eskk i have not posted in ages!!!!!

not good, and a load of crap has happened. ive been so unbelievably busy this month as well. ive had something on every weekend. its horrible. and alot of things have changed because of those weekends. not just how i am, but how others are around me. dont really want to talk about it as it is rather messed up. and i feel like i cant talk to my best friend about it cos i am annoying her with it. so im just going to let it go and see how it turns out..

thank god its half term this week though!! ive had sometime to myself for one lol. no assignments, not cadets. bliss. but i'll have to do the work soon though.

i'm applying for university as well which is huge!!! one day i think it is an amazing idea and is the only thing i can think about, but other days i just think its the worst. like i dont know what im getting myself into. its so huge and such a big change. i dont want to leave people. urgh. i guess my view will change tomorrow on this fact. urghhhhh.

anywho, im tired. night world xxx

oh god, hello october

oh my days it's nearly the end of the year!!!!!

and i can honestly say i am the procrastinating queen of the world!!!

yeah so i should be doing home work right now, but i just cannot bring my self to do it!!! it is the most hardest thing ever. all my work (including stuff i havnt been given/ given back yet) needs to be in by december... it killing me knowing i should be doing work. i just cant.

i'm off college on thursday, so i'm going to go in then and do some work... i hope i do get some done. i usually do when i am not at home lol. there's just too many distractions.

my sister is loving college and its great seeing her all the time. shes really getting into it as well which is great :)

college tbh is becoming more demanding, and my teachers are kind of becoming more hateful. just like my friends... two weeks in a row i have lashed out at them for either side of us being stressed. its just the small things that really get to me when i am annoyed. i just want them to go way ya know? i am grateful for them, dont get me wrong. with out jess or rachel, i would have nobody. its just they need to learn to leave me alone some times, and stop saying stupid stuff. just grow up. urgh!!

rant over

cadets is starting to be even more of a nighmare. i have something going off nearly every weekend this month!! its killing me. its great that i get payed and all, but i need time off. but these camps are important too. they allow me to to other things and better things with cadets!! its great.

well i better get back to doing fuck all... and then off to cadets...

ooh oh its my last dog training date tomorrow!!! :( so sad its nearly over!!!!! i was really getting used to it and we were getting good too!!! i hope i get a distinction!!!!!!!!!! fingers crossed.

byeeeeee xxx

why do i read fan-fiction?!?!

urgh sat here in tears right now!!!!! fan-fic kills me. well the pairing has to be right haha. i just read a harry/ tonks one shot, where they fell in love, and tonks died instead of sirius. its so bad!!!! its the same story all the way through as the books, but with repercussions of what happened, and what happened in the future... its so sad.

anyway, apart from wanting to kill myself right now, today was really good!! first day back at college, and yes i did fuck all haha. its great. and tbh, it was awesome being at college with my sister, and its the same tomorrow. its going great  haha.

night world.

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i turned 20 yesterday... i dont feel it, or look it. urgh its kind of killing me. i dont know what to do to look 'my age'. or if i need to do anything... mental. is there really a look that goes with a set age?!

college tomorrow. but we are doing nothing college like... haha. i think we're just getting our timetables, and being told anything new... bore off!!

right bath time to look pretty for tomorrow... fat chance.

love yaaa