naughty Rosie

yeah yeah i was supposed to post yesterday, but i didnt... sorry!! i am so ridiculously swamped right now it is unreal!!!

things with cadets is getting more serious and i am getting more into the swing of thing with it yay! i have my medical and interview next week on the 8th!! nervousness is starting to creep up on me haha.

things with college is getting worse and worse. i have never known a course to be so stressful!! haha. march i slowly but dangerously getting closer and it is scary!! every piece of assignment needs to be in for the 3rd of march, and anything after that will not get marked!! i have so many assignments still to do, and the referrals as well on top!! eesk.

buuuuut i have my work experience soon!! and i should find out if i have the place at the stables this week hopefully!!! fingers crossed!! :D

right bed time! long day of college, cadets and stress tomorrow!!! haha urgh.

peace out you BAMF <3

tired!!!!!!!

i haven't written on here in aaaages :( and i am too tired right now to go into the whirl wind that has been my week...

i really has been a messed up week, too exhusting for my liking too

well till tomorrow

niiiiight, love youu

semi pointless...

i had a army cadet adult training and test day today, and well i didnt get much out of it. it was mainly like pulling teeth, just being taught what i already knew and what i will be taught again from scratch in a few weeks time! i only had two tests done, my air rifle and 2.2 rifle, which are a piece of piss to do!! haha. i also felt crappy all day too because i had a stomach ache haha. i did have fun though, it is always a laugh being with all the adults at cadets haha they're like big kids!!

tomorrow is homework day!!! hopefully :/ haha. i really do need to get cracking on these bloody assignments!!! i think i am going to die... not being over dramatic or anything!! haha!!!!

nothing else to report, just majorly tired... mehh

good night world, love yaa x

cascade of emotions...

yesterday morning was the worst morning i had experienced in awhile!!! i got back my accommodation assignment back and apparently it is all wrong, and i dont have a clue what my lecturer is asking for!! i did actually break down in tears as i am so stressed and up set :( it isnt right, shes meant to be there to help me, not make my life even more difficult!!!

argh!! am so glad my friends were there to make me feel better and cheer me up!! i am so grateful for them even though i have not known them long, i still feel quite close to them, i love it.

today has just been a normal day at college, however with no doing weird things with animals haha!!!! i hope tomorrow is a good day :)

i had cadets yesterday too, it was pretty pants, its hard to keep busy in that place when you are not allowed to do much haha can wait till my sgt training!!! its gonna be hard, but lots of fun!! :D

anywho better jump in the bath, laters <3

geeks in the pub!! i'm the brunet

long time no see!!

i havnt posted in aaaages :( its because i am so swamped and exhausted from both college and cadets :( i'm still having fun though which is fortunate.

things will soon be kicking off with cadets, all paperwork is through, a training day next sunday and got my interview and medical next month!!! yaaay, at last haha.

stuff with college however is starting to pile up again haha. my tutors have the knack of giving us all their assignments at the same time!! haha. i'll get through it, i always do, i'm just to tired and hungry to do it right now haha. i did manage to let my hair down with my college girls on Saturday night however! my first ever time going down sheffield at night to go in the clubs!! i bloody loved it haha. it was hannah's 18th s we could all go drinking and we all went as geek chic (fit geeks) so i had high waisted shorts, chequered shirt, braces, geek glasses and bow ties haha. we looked amazing <3 i loved it and i so want to go plug again. i had such a laugh and the lads were all over me and jess!! hahaha it was so funny. they all wanted our glasses and having a photo with us!! so amazing.

currently dying from a cold/ infection/ flu/ whatever haha i hate winter. the only upside are the beautiful sunsets, one of which i am watching now <3 i love sunsets so much <3

back to college tomorrow... urgh. i can see it being stressful :(

till the next time, toodles x

beyond tired!!!

i didnt post yesterday, and he title says why, i was too tired... i still am tbh :(

it has been a very hecktic week, lots of cleaning and i started back at cadets again, which can be very stressful. but i was good seeing everyone again!! and i did have a laugh after awhile of not actually wanting to be there haha.

i've got my ecology and conservation presentation o do tomorrow... :( unbelievably scared. i dont really like standing infon of everyone talking, im a very quiet person and very shy. i always end up stuttering, and then i hate myself for i afterwards :(. i have gotten better though, through cadets i have learned to tackle this fear as i have to teach many different subjects to the little cadets. i am thankful for cadets in giving me more confidence :) .

off now before i just fall unconscious haha,

peace x

spring cleaning in winter..

as he title suggests i spent the whole day cleaning out the living room :( this involved moving stuff, hovering stuff, dusting stuff, moving more stuff, polishing stuff... i'm shattered now and i have college tomorrow. i think i have a morning of more cleaning, this time it will be animal cages... fun. its to much hard work for me haha.

i go back to cadets tomorrow too!! kinda excited, only for the fact of seeing my friends and getting back to the old routine lol. however one person im not sure about seeing is my bestfriend... we havnt properly talked since we broke up for crimbo holidays 3 weeks ago :/ shes far more interested in her boyfriend... i hate that and i hate girls like that!! its like i dont exist :(

hmm we'll see what tomorrow brings then... :/

peace x

no social life.

i didnt post yesterday :O i dont know why, its not like i was doing anything important... just like today haha.

i spent most of the morning yesterday taking down the christmas decorations. i dont like taking them down, its messy, takes ages and it makes the place look bare! :( and i never remember which boxes what goes in haha. oh well, next thing summer!!!! OMG my frind has just ask me if i want to go with him and my best mate and her boyfriend to go to the seaside for the weekend!! hell yeah! its going to be amazing if it happens haha.

nothing much happened today, just my grandma and aunt came around, and my aunt might be moving to America with her husband!!! omg jealous haha. but my grandma kept going n about how bad America is to live in haha. i love her rants. nothing much else happened today, did abit of my biology assignment... didnt get very far haha. now im just waiting for Sherlock to come on <3 i love Sherlock, it is one of my favourite tv shows at the moment, accept from wild at heart, but im recording that as it is on at the same time :( oh well i'll watch it tomorrow :D

 i will hopefully get some work done tomorrow... i'll try my best, i just need more motivation :(

right bath time before Sherlock <3 <3

peace x

oh so tired

i usually dont go into college on fridays, but today i had to as i has my ecology assignment to finish and hand in. i am so proud of the amount of work i have done today, it amazing. i work so much better under pressure haha.

i dont know if i still i'm, but i am meant to meet up with that lad tomorrow... im better off not being with anyone tbh. i like being alone, its one of my traits.

my parents are out at the moment, they are at a beekeepers meeting. sound more interesting than it is haha. being a beekeeper is fun and interesting, but the meeting not so much haha.

so home alone with the dog, bliss :)

peace x

success!!!!

omg the rabbit hurdling was amazing!! after many attemps and encouragements, she managed to do the hurdles on her own!! it was so amazing and cute. however i did get afew scratches at the beginning as she didnt really like what was going on and was scared, but when she settled down she was amazing!! i am so proud that i taught the rabbit to hurdle !! haha

the rest of the day was just full of the usual college banter and fun, oh and assignments haha.

confused!! that lad that i said i was now reluctantly in the friend zone with, now wants to meet up, and he was being quite suggestive to what will happen. i do wan to meet him as i miss him loads and have fallen for him so hard, but i dont want to meet because something i saw put me off him a little bit :( he is such a snake and i hate lads that flirt around, you cant trust them. but also it has a lil bit t do with my crappy commitment issues anyway :( ive been messed about so much that it is hard for me to find a boyfriend, an when some does eventually like me, i push them away. i hate being like this. i didnt go on facebook yesterday just so i could avoid him... i'm stupid. i really don know what the weekend will bring.

i dont have college on fridays, but unfortunatly i'm going in to finish off my ecology assignment. it has been such a long and tiring week. i could sleep for days, and that really is what i should be doing now...

peace x

tomorrow should be fun.

tomorrow should indeed be fun!! haha first thing tomorrow at college me and my group of friends are going to try and teach a rabbit to hurdle!! haha. i know it sounds weird but its part of my animal health assignment where we need to give an animal a type of enrichment, like exercise or social or mental. i might post a photo of it tomorrow if i get the change because we need to include photo graphical evidence in our reports.

major relief today!! my ecology lecturer has decided to be kind to us all and give us another week to do our presentations so we can concentrate better on our written assignments!! yes!!!! i have to admit, i do have major crush on him haha!! its because he is so young and cool and of all the things he has done, all the travelling and working with animals i want to work with. when me and my friend was asking about the assignment today, he kept looking at me, not my friend. i kept blushing haha he has really nice eyes too. i'm a hair and eye person, thats what i look for most in a guy.

anywho haha, today has been not too bad, had a good laugh and catch up from the holidays, nothing eventful. but i do like college like today, i felt clever and i felt that my biology teacher knows i am and was encouraging me today :) i get afew compliments like that, that am the cleverest in my group. i really helps me and keeps me going, because through secondary and sixth form i had nothing like that, just an average student who my not make it anywhere. well i'll show em!! :D haha

night x

shocking news!!

this time in 8 months i will be 20!!!! D: i dont want to become 20. i dont even feel 16, or look it... i do hate looking young for my age :( oh dear...

peace x

maybe not so stressful.

first day back at college and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be...

my first lesson was thankfully fun as i was cleaning out the degus and gerbils cages. even though that might not sound fun, shovelling poo, but i had a laugh with my partner and had fun trying to catch the pesky rodents haha. the rest of the day was just full of  writing my assignment that i should have done in the holidays... oh well, progress is progress.

i have come down with a cold and i actually think i am dying!!! haha. i hate having colds, i feel so unattractive and down. so tried. i think thats why i have caught a cold, being so exhausted.

tomorrow shall be another day of assignment writing... fun. but maybe with some rabbit hurdleing mixed in with it ;) i hope it goes well and it is tomorrow we do it!! haha

cant think of anything else to write, so till the next time.
peace x

if you go down to the woods today.

last day of the holidays and what i hoped to be productive, turned out to be a family day out to the local forests/woods. don't get me wrong, i love going out with my family, especially to Rufford abbey and to Clumber Park, which is very close to my house, which i love. i love nature, hence where i want to go in life, conservation.

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow; early starts, long walks, the cold, stress... oh well, it will just be a long day to a even longer week.

i only have three months until all my assignments are in, until my course finishes and till i start my work experience!! the latter i am most excited about! i get to spend two weeks on a stables (hopefully). even though is is not what i want to do in life, i still find it interesting as horse work has been close to me as my mum used to horse ride, i have ridden once in my first year of Army Cadets and my gran's neighbour owns a horse and i used to help her out when ever i visited my my gran :) i hope this works for me as it is the only thing keeping me going.

Rufford and Clumber are so beautiful... i love trees and all the wildlife of the woods and the lakes. i am always reluctant in wanting to go, but when i am out there i love it. im not really fit, even though i do army cadets, so it is hard work walking many miles, but i love it. usually my family goes to the peak district around this time of year, but we havnt gotten around to doing it :( i love the peak district!! i was born to live in Derbyshire!! i want to live there and work with the land and animals when i am older and done with travelling and working with exotics.

i have so many plans... but will they happen, who knows.

peace x

all play, no work.

so today was supposed to be the day that i did a big chunk of my assingments, but however it being new years day, the tv was to distracing with all the films being on. -bows head in shame-. i dont thing the tv people should do that, have so many fulms on in one day... i got nothing done today :( and maybe i wont tomorrow and it is my last day before going back to college.

i dont really want to go to college on tuesday. it is becoming to stressful. even though i do want to work with animals when i leave college and work in animal conservation, it is just the annoying task of college first. i dont like doing the stuff that i do not need like learning about cells, or nutrition with the chemical make up of stuff... the only thing i do find interesting, is the parts that are becoming quite hard to understand because of my tutor. he has a way of failing you even when you do your greatest ever work. he is never satisfied. you think he would be bing young and attractive, that he could relate to us, be more friendly. alas no.

feeling quite down today,  even though i have just read something that made me smile uncontrollably. but it also made me realise that i am now in the "friend zone" with someone, even though i am pretty sure i am in love with him... oh dear. oh well. better not dwell on the matter, even though i posses the power to over think things, being a woman and that...

anywho, night world, till the next time. x